You Are Your Own Biggest Fear

My dad got mad at me
For writing about you
Yet here I am
Continuing to

This is how we must communicate now
Even if you never reply
I can at least feel a twinge of delight
Knowing that at least I try

Maybe if I write you enough
You might actually love me again
Nah, just more wishful thinking
Nothing can save me, not even this pen

It's a real shame the way things had to turn out
But where's a reason to scream and pout?
That's oh so hypocritical for me to say
Because that's what I do every single day

I've lost control of what I do
Simply because of how much I love you
My world is going down the drain
And I stand outside your house in the freezing cold rain

Behind your locked door
The rain continues to pour
And you and him are all smiles and grins
Because you both know I won't be the one who wins

How can you write such silly lies?
How there's a good reason we aren't together
I'm here to tell you that reason looks at you in the mirror
That's right, you are your own biggest fear