BEEN UP FOR 3 DAYS NOW

I have been up for 3 days now,
i think to myself what the f**k,
y can`t i sleep?,
i sit here with the shakes,
the tears rolling down my face,
y am i like this?,
things have to change,
i cant go on like this,
its making me ill,
i have so many things,
going round and round in my head,
y wont these thoughts go away,
i cant take much more of this,
i need some sleep ,
but i just cant,
so many nice people on here,
that just wanna help,
but i cant tell them whats up ,
its eating me up inside,
the pain,the hurt,
the tears,the sorrow ,I'm feeling,
y wont theses feelings just go,
i tried my best,
to help ,care, and be a friend,
but its just not good enough,
i feel i have failed,
i have lost so many people,
as they just don't understand me,
i tried to explain ,
I'm just being me,
i cant be no one else,
I'm sorry for the hurt,
the pain, i have caused any one,
I'm now paying for this ,
so please let me sleep,

THANKS NATASHA COMMENTS WELCOME