Suicide kisses

Looking deep inside myself
my heart withering away
i found what i was looking for
two years from today
but
anger drilled a hole too deep
for me to fill or move
so i wallowed in my pity there
with nothing else left to prove
and
i filled the gap with tears for him
saltwater and blood for my wrists
but between the lines i read that he
will always be desperately missed
and
i found myself the victim again
this time he cried for me
and we held each other there until
our pleas became a sea
and
we drowned in our misery
two years from today
so, no matter where we went, Heaven or Hell
it would always be ok

so we caught our pain and held it there
like treasure, never letting it leave
and our memories turned to nothing there
as you were killed by a disease
your lungs gave in to the demon of death
but it was voluntary because you let go
blowing suicide kisses at your last breath
never truly missing it though

and i tried to make you happy
to make you wanna stay
but you always said you'd miss me here
two years from today

and you cupped my face in your hands
giving me the mark of death
branding me with your hated lies
cancer on your breath

D2: Mitchell T.
*(son, husband, dad)*
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