Is love for me?

Why isn't love for me?
somebody please answer me this!

at the age of seventeen,
i've never been kissed.
even just a slight brush,
from my own dear crush.

the taste of lips,
i only get as far as lipstick,
and oh, how i long my for crush's taste.
all i think is,
he tastes like strawberry cheesecake.

at seventeen,
never been loved,
it seems as though,
for me,it was quarantined.

i almost had a first,
but it seemed more like lust.
and thats how my first,
became yet,my last.

i want to be loved,
even just for a little while,
i don't care if it's a toad,a prince or a knight,
i want to be loved,
and thats all that counts..