Are you still my lover?

Can I rely that you will be there?
Can I trust that you’ll really care?
Can I be sure you love me too?
Are you willing to know what I’ve been through?

Maybe you’ll understand and start to get the picture,
When I explain, will you still want me near you?

I’ve been broken and battered and abused till I bleed,
So I get a little desperate off your love and my need,
I been cheated and lied to and betrayed by my friends,
Can you reassure me you’ll be there, right till the end?

When I was younger I grew up around rape and violence,
And as I got older I had to suffer in silence,
My past haunts me sometimes and I suffer from nightmares,
But I promise I’m okay with a little care.

Will you cope when I brake down to crying?
Will you help me up when I feel like dying?
Can you force those tablets down my throat?
And take the blade so I can’t go?

Do you believe what your dad tried to do?
And it wasn’t perfect timing because I was going through,
I feel ugly and dirty and used like a rag,
Because of this, my attitude gets bad.

So tell me, guide me, give me a clue,
Do you still love me the way you used to?

People tend to use me for sex, games and fun,
So then I get weak and from the world I run,
I’m not a child, I’ve witnessed to much,
So in my life I’ve had a little bad luck.

I’m not to smart and kindness is my weakness,
But can you not take advantage, and help me through this?

Can you make sure that properly, I eat?
To make sure we don’t have an anorexic repeat?
Can you watch the tablets in the dresser,
Just in case I don’t feel like being there?

So tell me, guide me one last time.
Can u make a promise you will be mine?

Do you join me from your bed, watching the stars?
Do you think of me from where you are?
Sitting so close but miles apart,
You still hold the key to my heart.

But can I rely that you will be there?
Can I trust that you’ll really care?
Do you still love me the way you used to?
Do you understand what I’ve been through?