Tonight In The Cold I Cried

Tonight I took a walk
Just to clear my head
As I thought about my life
Filled with a sense of dread.

As I stomped along
Tears began to fall
Thinking about the future
...Scared of it all.

Sitting on a bench
Trying to clear my thoughts
What have I done that's so bad
To deserve this pain life has brought?

Always with a fixed smile
Silently in despair
Can't help but wonder
Which people really care.

Rain began to fall
Couldn't seem to move
How much more can I handle
What do I have to prove?

Tired of choosing the wrong friends
Tired of all my mistakes
Tired of not knowing what to do
Tired of how my soul aches.

Wind began to blow
Chilling me to the bone
Yet still, I sat there
Didn't want to go home.

My bones began to ache
My lips were turning blue
My whole body frozen
Pain slowly seeping through.

Vicious wind caught up
Trees swaying on either side
Everybody thinks I'm happy
Tonight in the cold I cried.