Checking Out

Why does it fee
Like I've lost control?
Like I'm falling
Into a pit with nothing
But darkness?
I don't know
What I'm doing,
Where I'm going
Or why.

I'm so confused!

Is there any reason
For me to be alive?
Do I have a purpose?
Is there anything
I have to offer
Or am I just
A complete waste
Of time and money?
Should I just
Save some time
And end my life?
Will it make them
At least notice me?
Pay attention to me?

Oh never mind.
I'm checking out now.
Won't ever come back
Now that my life
Doesn't exist...

17 October 2004