Reunited and Confused

I'm not going to sugar coat anything
Theres no way to start this poem right
So let me release these feelings now
Before I cause more tears tonight

You ended all connections between us
We haven't talked in nine long months
Through that long period of time
We haven't spoke once

I don't know what it was I said
I would love it if you told me what I did
To make you want to lose touch with me
I have a hard time understanding where it was we slid

The first week of summer you didn't call
I told myself I wasn't going to do it again
I wasn't going to cry because you didn't want to talk
You obviously were no true best friend

So summer flew by and I was with new girls
We had a blast and I didn't think of you
I was actually being myself for once
Something with you I could never do

I would be lying if I said I didn't miss you
I would be a coward to say I never loved you at all
But you hurt me so much I've been traumatized for life
Now every day, all my friends I call

You showed me what a true friend would NOT do
But what happened to all those laughs we had?
I think about them all the time girl
And it breaks my heart so bad

Everyone thought we were so close
We couldn't be separated, you and I
But now our relationship will never be the same
All our good times have already gone by

Now that I saw you in the mall
And felt the way you hugged me tight
It made me miss all our old memories
Of cuddling and being such girls at night

My mind was flooded by your laugh and smile
But I wasn't quite sure what to say
I told you how I was and my mom said she missed you
I don't know if you noticed how my words were delayed

Theres nothing for me to say after you lost touch
You are the one who deleted me from your phone
I just followed what I thought you were doing
And took all your pictures down in my home

If you end up calling me now
I will nicely explain how long it took for me to heal
And I hope you feel a little bit guilty
After hearing how I feel

I'm so confused on what to do though
If we hung out again things won't be the same
My new best friend doesn't compare to you
Me and her have been through a lot in life's game

I was reunited with an old best friend
And I'm so lost on what to do
But I doubt you'll even call at all
I'm just so used to that treatment from you

But maybe you were sent to me for a reason
Maybe God is trying to speak to me
Oh what to do with a lost friendship
Do I forgive and forget or just let you be?