The note you pinned to your skin.

You hate me
Though, i cant help but love you.
i pretend like your still here
i believe you are, too

ill tell you the story
of my life to this day
the anger never ends
ill tell you how i got this way:

every night we talked
for hours and hours on end
you never told anyone our secret
you were my very best friend

one day we walked to school together
i watched you get pushed around
i prayed to someone
but no one could hear my desperate sound

you dodged the people surrounding you
and made a fearful dash
i followed close behind you
blood dripping from your gash

you never told me one thing
the way he treated you
the way he acted like the loved you
and you thought it was true

i knew it from the start
you were never very cool
but to me you were the very best
it's not your fault she was such a fool

you found out her deceitful trick
that very same day
i couldn't help but pity you
you were made fun of by everyone, in every which
way

at 5:00 that afternoon
i called you several times
you can't imagine how much i worried
you scare me so bad sometimes

at 6:00 i started on my way
your house was only a block down
i searched your whole entire place
i didn't enter one room without a frown

because every step i made
without seeing you
i sher one more tear
for i knew that when i found you, i wouldn't know
what to do

and when that moment came
all my tears were stopped
i fell right onto the floor
and i saw your wrists were chopped

your head was wrapped
in a clear plastic mess
i didn't feel alive
you held my satin dress

i remember when you borrowed that
for that night out at a bar
we laughed all night
while you smoked your cigar

i wondered why you did it
why you left without saying goodbye
and then i spotted the note you left
covered in the tears you cried

on the note
you simply wrote:

I CAN'T CRY. ANYMORE. YOU WERE THERE FOR ME, AND I'M SORRY I LET YOU DOWN. ON THE BACK IS A NOTE FOR HIM.I WANT YOU TO READ IT TOO. THEN YOU'LL UNDERSTAND THAT WHAT I DID WASN'T BECAUSE OF YOU.

on the back i slowly read:

LAUGH AT MY CORPSE, INSTEAD.

and then i knew
the pain you went through
you hated me
and i loved you