This Painful Secret

I'm falling for this guy.
Met him last year and thought nothing of it.
He passes in the halls and greets me like everyone else,
But each time he smiles, I feel like I'm the only being smiled at.

He has no idea what I'm feeling inside.
Never felt this way before,
And its killing me keeping this bottled up
But the truth is the very thing that could end our friendship

He found out I liked him, and I freaked
I wanted him to know all along, than I ruined it
I told him it wasn't true, it was just a rumor
Why did I do that? Now he'll never know the truth

Better off as friends then not at all.
Felt this way now for so long
Knowing that we'll never be together,
Is getting easier to get use to.

Love shouldn't feel like pain
Should make you feel on top of the world
That's how I feel right now in this moment
Every touch, smile, hello, and look makes me feel beautiful

You don't know how you make me feel,
But these feelings are real.
You are my friend and my love.
Don't mean to scare you off, but that's how I feel

Each moment we spend together feels like forever
Even in a painful day, all I need is to see you,
And all the pain goes away.
Seeing you lights up my day, and I can't help but smile.

I believe this is heaven to no one else but me
I'll give you everything I have, the good, the bad
You see me as I really am, the flaws, and imperfections
I love you for you, and I love that you see the real me