It doesnt even matter anymore

Sitting here i stare into space
thinking about life
and your unforgettable face

how exactly is this sposed to go
when everythings all new to you
and you dont really know

nights like these i grow cold to the world around me
the constant fight between right and wrong
makes me refuse to want to see

i cant think straight and i cant see clearly
how could i possibly stand strong
when i feel so overwhelmed and weary

its like my hope has been stripped away
the smiles have disappeared
and the good times have gone astray

i close my eyes and i see you standing there
i run to you drowning in my tears
because i know no one else can compare

opening my eyes one tear falls
i take a deep breathe
because this one tear holds it all

it holds my strength and my security
my passion to love
and my uncertainties

ill wipe my face and get back on track
smile once more
ignoring the happiness that i lack

i always end with thinking it doesnt matter
ill cover it up and make it better
if only i didnt have to live with this heart that feels so shattered...