Splintering Away One Piece At A Time

I act as if everything is okay,
I just hold in all the pain,
Hiding the gashes on my arms,
From the words that seem to cut so deep.

I won't admit the things I say inside my head,
If you ever found out the dangerous thoughts I have,
I guarantee you'll walk away,
With the words, "I give up", from your mouth.

The doors of my life,
Are splintering away,
Leaving a hole to reveal everything,
My walls that I hold myself in,
Are rotting away with my tears,
I know you need to know the truth someday,
But not now,
Not today.

I"ll leave the ruins of me behind,
And when you find pieces of my rotting life,
I'll be lost in the ocean of bodies,
Looking for a chance to start over,
A chance to not let my life be so revealed,
And maybe if it does seep out,
I'll have a best friend who will understand,
And not walk away.