MY SO CALLED DAD

I'm sick of feeling like I'm being used
like I'm unwanted and abused
feeling sick by the thought of my own dad
knowing the normal child hood that i never had
i resent him and what he's done
deep inside i know he's won
i cut myself but you didn't know why
now you know why i want to die
his face and hands haunt me still
i try to forget but i know i never will
he was the one person that i used to trust
now i only look away in disgust
he was supposed to love me he was meant to care
but once again this life isn't fair
he touched me in places he should have left alone
and now i live in this broken home
Danny didn't deserve this and now because of me
a real dad he will never see
he hates him too i see it in his eyes
the way he hides his helpless cries
but i blame myself i always do
and I'm sorry i take my pain out on you