Ignored

Ignoring me and my feelings every day
Pretending I am happy
Just take this pain away
They don't want to experience the hatred that dwells within

My soul and mind yearn
for someone to be with me
my arms and flesh burn
with the blood I have for them

I am told that I am a screw up in all ways
I need the feeling of friendship in my life
No one is here or cares these days
I just have to find something in myself

Can't someone just end it?
This miserable existence that most call life
The flame is extinguished, never again to be lit
I am not meant to have anything good, not ever

I used to be happy
but all good things eventually come to an end
there is a black hole inside me
I think it is where my heart used to be

One big miserable lie is what I am
I smoke and drink, sin in every way
It suddenly hit me, just a BAM
no one had ever cared, and they probably never will