Diving through my past
I tried not to come back to this place
It's haunted me for a while
Taunting me
Making sure I didn't forget about it
I've learned to walk faster
Attempting to hide
Fighting every urge to cry
I'm finally taking the plunge
Sorting through this mess I've left behind
Throwing most of it away
Never wanting to think about it again
Coming across little things
About who I used to be
Wondering if I was the enemy back then
Or if I'm an enemy now
Will I ever let myself be who I'm supposed to be?
So many things have happened
I'm not sure if I'll ever like who I am
I know that no one will ever see who i really am
Not when I keep doing this
The male section of my past is full but uninteresting
I leave that and move on
Plunging deep into the worst part
Friends have been there for me
But I keep getting stabbed in the back
I've got chosen over a lot of things
Boys, popular group, drugs, and many more
I was down at the time
But it made me realize who I don't want to be
Or maybe it's turned me into a mixture of all
Going into the past is always going to be hard
And this time it's gunna take a while for everything to settle
But until I figure out who I really am
And what I'm made to be
I'll never be happy with the way my past is
