I remember the pain
Lying awake all night long
Shaking as the tears fall
Wanting to end this life
That's a feeling that will never leave me
When i think back on it
Would i have really regretted it?
Would people have missed me then?
How many ways could i have done it?
Too many
And i would have never felt any of them for long
As I'm so scared of pain
Some people never saw it coming
The fact that i wanted to die
"Such a happy person"
Little did they realize it's all a mask
Would i ever escape this
That thought crossed my mind every day
I was so scared that i was going to live like this
Never living a normal life
Now 4 years have passed
Still have those reoccurring thoughts
Wondering if I'm still supposed to be here
Or was i supposed to go a long time ago
The pain of death is hard to take in
I used to think everyone would be better off
If i was gone then i wouldn't cause any more pain
Maybe I'll never know if it could be true
