Mother's little girl's forgiveness

Mother please forgive me,

For forgetting to put
The last log on the fire,
Letting you freeze inside
Your own home,

For not cleaning out my head,
And letting my worries,
Seep into the carpet,
A permanent reminder of me

For just sitting here and waiting,
Watching my lack of life,
Cause the fortress to fall,
Your palace crumbling before you,

For believing i could make it all better,
When obviously that's not something,
I am capable of doing,
These days I'll just fade away,

For not changing that light bulb,
Letting you walk around in the dark,
Hear you stumble and not know,
Where i sit in tears

For not fixing that leaky faucet,
Just sitting listening to it drip,
Driving a sane mind crazy,
It doesn't bother me that much,

For getting in trouble at school,
Not doing as i was told,
Making you look so bad,
Doesn't matter i didn't do nothing

For not matching up to the ranks,
Of daughters you'd rather talk to,
Not much you can get out of me,
Nothing to look at you can't take from

For falling behind in the race,
Just like any other day,
Crossing the line in final place,
And sometimes not making the end

For stopping myself explaining the scene,
A chaotic crime case in the bathroom,
Something we cover up and hide,
The evidence that nothing went on

For not remembering what you told me,
Perhaps a worldly riddle solved,
That all my troubles would be gone,
If i took the time to sit and listen

For starting the food fight at the table,
To distract everyone when,
I sit under you all in secret,
Feasting on things that make nothing better

For looking nothing like,
The perfect fit for the girl you want,
To self absorbed in suffocating her pains,
With charms that only bring more

Do you know what its like,
Do you know how much i try,
Is it possible to save someone,
Born in quicksand

Please mother dear,
Save me from the girl,
Suffocating your little one,
All it takes is your forgiveness

I'll remember to call back,
When i get home before sundown,
Tell you I'm safe and sound,
In my four walled prison cell

I'll pull you a confectionery smile,
That way you can see i eat,
So that tells you your little girl doesn't,
Wish i could say whats in my stomach

I can't quote my past,
But you wouldn't believe it anyway,
The world makes me colder,
And this acid isn't warming me up

So, what else can i say,
Another page of a chapter,
Written on my wrists and,
Swimming in my bloody sink

Hoping you can forgive me,
Even though you don't know,
The half of this girl's story,
Don't worry neither does she.