Why do You Torture Me?

Why do you torture me?
Why won’t you give me
The one thing I desire most,
Someone to love me?

First you kept this from me
By keeping anyone from having
Any interest in me at all.

Not one guy seemed to care about me
And if they didn’t even care,
How could anyone love me?

Then I spent years
Thinking the same guy
Was the one for me.

It might sound crazy
But I thought I loved him,
Even though we weren’t even close.

I truly was foolish
And dumb
For he had no interest in me whatsoever.

Next you decided
To throw me a bone
And set up some opportunities.

All seemed to be going fine,
He seemed to like me
And I liked him.

But then as soon as I admitted
That I liked him
That he could be the one,

For some reason you
Made everything just fall apart
And collapse right in my face.

And it didn’t matter one bit
How good things were going,
Or how close I was.

Soon as I figured out
That I liked them and they liked me
Everything that could go wrong did.

But now you’ve finally given me someone,
Someone who cares for me
And I them.

But then you go and make me second-guess myself
Until I’m all confused
And I don’t even know how I do or should feel.

Besides, that all doesn’t matter anyways
Because it’s only a couple of months
Before graduation.

Even if anything were to happen,
If a relationship were to come,
It couldn’t last that long.

So yet again
I must ask you why you torment me,
Why you keep me from my wish.

What did I do to deserve this?
Why must I suffer?
Why can’t I have the one thing I wish to obtain,
Someone to care for me?