Together, We Make One

I don't know anything anymore
not who i am
why I'm here
what my purpose is
I'm dying inside
with everything
everything
going wrong
though many try
and try so hard
to help me
i don't know if i can be helped
i don't know if anybody can save me
or if I'm even worth saving
if my life has any meaning
any at all
i cant break free
of these bonds
these shackles of fear
tie me down
fear and hate and mistrust and sorrow
tie me down
what is there for me to do?
what can i do to save myself?
is there anything?
i know nothing
i am not Eleanor
but i am not Bridget
i am nobody
i am nothing
i have no name
no soul
just a face
a face who cannot even recognize herself
these eyes cannot see
past my flaws
these lips cannot speak
except to cry out
these ears do not hear
except the insults raining down
this nose smells nothing
no sweet scents, only lies
these fingers cannot touch
cannot feel
i am numb
numb deaf and blind
i am alone
and i wish it weren't so
oh how i wish it so much
i don't know what I'm doing
my actions are not mine
they are HERS!
the nameless one
who lives inside me
she controls me
and i cannot stop her
she is Vile
and i, Fade
and we are one
together we make one