Coming Together

In my past, I never actively tried to start a relationship with any of my girlfriends.

It seems I was always in the "right place", at the "right time" to tumble into a relationship.

Unfortunately, nothing was right about those times, a lot of pain could have been avoided.

I felt quite indifferent if I was or wasn't in a relationship in the beginning.

My hatred infected anyone that had even the slightest connection with me.

My mind was too far gone, overloaded with my plans of my punishment, and the anticipation of death.

With my vision blurred and thoughts distorted from my confusion, I didn't realize what was happening.

I was very sick.

Relationships had seemed to feel a bit foreign to me, but eventually I did learn to care for each one of my girlfriends.

I thought I was learning to love, but I didn't realize I was still very unhealthy.

It wasn't until later on when I did learn of my deseased ways.

Since then I have been very careful not to repeat those ways and avoid the abuse.

Now I do my best to leave the negative in the past, and try to take the positives with me.

In my life, I have only had three long term goals to motivate me for change.

The first time I joined the service to selfishly work toward a horrible and twisted plan.

I was stuck in with an uncaring attitude with risky behavior to feel like I am living.

I believe I have gotten much better years later, and I am more aware of my actions and thoughts since then.

My second motivation in life is probably just six years old.

This goal is wanting to become healthy, able to control my illness, and stay healthy.

Now I am here again, this time with my third motivation in life.

This isn't a terrible plan like my first one, but of course, it probably won't happen, besides I'm not in her league.

I am desperate to form a deeper relationship with the most amazing woman (or person) I have ever known.

She alone has pointed me in all the right directions to be successful against my sickness.

She's too modest to agree with me, but I know the truth.

No one else in my life would be able to claim half of those things she has done to help me.

When I am with her I hold back my emotions and pretend not to be in love with her.

Besides, I don't want her to feel her uncomfortable, and make the situation awkward.

All I want is a chance with her, a loving relationship.

For us to come together, be as one, forever.

Come with me, and I'll always come with you.