You hurt me so badly!

I was only 11 years
my mom brought me out to your house
every Saturday night
when i was younger i thought it was OK for to have sex with me
you had asked me if you could do me
and for the first time you heard me
i had told you no
you didn't take no for an answer
you threw me on the bed
you pulled my clothes off
while i was fighting
but i was a stick and your body was chubbier
i was weak and you were strong
after you got done you yelled at me to get dressed
and for me to get out of your room
so i got dressed and got out
i left my mom at my aunts house
i live in neoga and my aunt lives in Etna
i went for a walk i had made it to Neoga
but i didn't want to go back home
so instead i went to the park
i thought to myself
this couldn't happen to me
he was my cousin and his brother did the same to me last night at my grandmas house
i never did tell anyone
I've held it in for 6 years
no one knows
but what made me come out was the thought
of all the other raped victims had gone through
but i still never went and told the authorities
only because he is married and has 4 kids
5 yr old a 3 yr. old 1 yr.old and a 9 month old
and his older brother is also married
3 girls and one boy
and he has 2 kids
1 boy and one girl
ones 9 or 10 and the other is 6
and not only that it is too late to tell anyone else.