Left In Shadows

Never friends till the end,
Damn it,
I tried..
The ditching,
The not caring,
You used me!!
It still hurts of what you do,
I'm not as strong as you!!
You can't expect me to just let it go..
Especially when I have depression..
I depended on you..
Not anymore

Now I'm a freaking loner.
I can't trust
I can't socialize without thinking
I still have scars.

Maybe I thought that you would have changed
You said that you would do your part,
And I mine.
You are just using me again..
Hurts...
Like old times.
I'm not as strong as a lot of people in this world..
I feel weak,
Small.
So depressed

If I had a chance to die right now
I would.
I'm not afraid of death
Nor it's afraid of me.
I will leave this world knowing that I am truly alone.
Dying in my biggest fear.

People never change,
Feels like I can't show my real self to others.
No one knows the real me.
I hide it deep within me self.
You knew my real self..
Until of all what you did
I was the opposite of what I was now..

I'm heartbroken still..
I still hurt from all you did
I can't heal in months..
Nor Weeks,
Or Days!!
I need a friend
Someone to talk to..
Not left in shadows