Like a ray of sunshine I had found u,
A gentle, warm slap in the face, and there u were;
Like a knife in the back it hit me,
And sooner than I could blink I had lost u.
u were supposed to be the different one,
u were supposed to be the one who finally set me free,
the one to pull me from the depths of my own self,
and save me from the darkness.
I did nothing wrong,
I was the perfect guy,
sensitive, caring, and loving;
but still I roll over expecting to see u and all I see is darkness,
all I have left are memories.
and so here I am, thinking, pondering what happened;
I lay perplexed, unaware of what went wrong,
left only with the reality that u are no longer next to me,
left in a free-fall downward,
back to the place I fought so hard to get out of,
back to the prison that is myself,
back to loneliness.
Once again I find myself surrounded,
Surrounded by the darkness I fear so much!
