Push rewind and re-live the time

And with tears in my eyes, streaming down my face I would say “I had a lot of fun this year I'm glad we made it through” confused and curious you say nothing. I work up the strength to speak the words I have thought for the last two months " I I just don’t want to lose you and I'm scared to see the day I do" I wait to see what you will say before I make my last remark. You say nothing; just stare at something that is invisible to me. When you don’t say anything I plan to finish. But what do you say to someone you’ve loved and lost, drifted and come close to, someone who is alive partly because of you, someone you probably won’t see ever again. What do you say when that person is a best friend. So we sit in silence for lack of words to speak. As memories race through my mind I try to hold in the tears but its no use. I burst into tears the dam is completely thrashed now here they all come, two months worth. I told myself I wouldn’t cry but I let it all go. “I’m sorry” you said in a cold whisper of regret and sorrow. You walked away after that. I knew this could very well be the last time I see you for a very long time. I can’t move although I wish I could so I could run up and hug you. When I finally have the strength to move you are gone

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