Secret Lovers

Only when it comes to you
Can I hide and suppress my feelings
No one knows what I endure
Or the way that Ive been dealing.

I smile when I'm with my friends
And cry when I'm alone.
But my pain no one can ever see
My agony must remain unknown.

I have to keep it all bottled up
Because no one can understand it
Why would I still love and care
For someone who did things you did.

I always wondered how women like me
Could stay with men like you
But once the heart gets involved
Theres nothing you can do.

Love is like a drug
Its stronger than cocaine.
It hits you and you just crave more
Even though you know it causes pain.

If anyone knew I still saw you
And laid with you in bed
To most of my family and my friends
Id be considered dead.

I'm risking all the people I love
Disowning and shunning me.
But if I can hold on to you
That is all Ill need.

I feel like Ive been brainwashed
And put under your spell
But living life without you
Is like living life in hell.