Not knowing how to feel,
what feelings should be a must
i have my ups and downs,
yet now its getting harder to tell them apart,
wondering what to feel,
if i can feel at all
wondering if my feelings mean anything at all
if feelings have meaning,
then what do these feelings mean?
dont know why my feelings are so mixed up,
trying to figure out which way is up
do i feel up or down,
is there a way to tell,
or am i running out of time?
if there is a way,
what way is that?
my brain is so mixed up,
is there a tumor somewhere
in there?
my mind is racing,
faster than the speed of light
wondering how to feel,
if i can feel at all,
cause these feelings are dying slowly
even slower than the slowest suicide,
cause if these feelings dont stop
i dont know how long my mind
can keep up,
what do these feelings,
if they are feelings at all,
mean, if they are feelings at all?
