She Says

It feels as if I'm constantly running in place,
I'm bombarded with stupid problems that I, alone, have to face...

I want to yell at loud as I can,
But my silent screams won't mean a damn...

I want to cry for the rest of the night,
But invisible tears won't make things alright...

I want to run and never ever look back,
But boundaries are keeping me off track...

I want to hurt and make myself feel pain,
But people might just think I'm a bit insane...

The things that I want, I can't get,
No matter how hard I try, I'm left empty set...

I use to have reasons of why I'd re-awake,
But I lost all of that by mistake...

I use to love people, more than you know,
But all of those people let me go...

I use to have best friends, ones you'll never meet,
Because they've already left me alone, trying to stand on both feet...

I use to have everything that I could possibly have,
But things suddenly started to go bad....

And now I'm crying myself to sleep,
This pain I have runs sooo deep...

I have scars that will never go away,
Right now, I'm nothing NEAR feeling OK...

I use to have a reason in life,
Why things would just play out right...

Why I wouldn't do the things that I'd do,
Why I kept my head high too...

She says she's too busy these days,
I say we both are going separate ways...

She says she still cares about me,
I say that she's making me unhappy....

She says she believes I can get through this,
I say that everything she gave me, i miss...

She says to fix things on my own time,
I say that she's taking up too much of mine...

She that says these things to me,
Use to open my eyes so I can see...

And she that says isn't around anymore,
And I don't have a reason to fight for...