Confusion

Lots of anger
Fear and Pride
I dont want to face this
I'll run away and hide

I'll cut the thought away
Or a new burn maybe

Something to make it stop
Just amke it go away.

The shame
The guilt
Hurts more than you know
Spaces need to be filled

I'll fill them with substances
much more than I can handle

Maybe a new addiction
Will make my mind more stable.

Rejection,
Not wanted
This feeling in my gut
My heart constantly haunted

I'll take my life
To save my sanity.

this is the only way
the only way it can be.

.....good night