If ann wants me with her, then there is none who will stop her. i don't mind. i was never like the rest of them, making plans about great things i'd do. i never saw myself as anything much. i am not a great writer like ******
Oh, i have missed you so ******, Why does everyone want to go away ? i loved being here. But i don't like being left behind. Now i am going ahead. i am not afraid. i can be brave like you.
But i shall be homesick for you, even in Heaven.
We bear our souls and tell the most appalling secrets, she has ruined me.
If only i could be like her and crave the pain and stand up to the lion of starvation.
But when i once stepped up to my podium i blinked and fell far.
Past the first, second and third step i know i was heading somewhere dark.
Try to slip by her defence without hindering my progress,
All i have to say now is i am sorry,
And it is not your fault -
i just wish sometimes someone could feel,
The happiness i felt that day,
When merely a shadow stood before me - smile.
