I woke up a little early today,
didn't close my eyes till late,
i stayed up till the lights went dim,
and watched the world go out,
during the night i am still fighting,
to catch my breath and keep breathing,
so when they wake in the morning,
i don't lay cold and stil with eyes drained,
but i got through this bedtime again,
just wondering when my time stops,
and i don't open my eyes that fateful dawn,
i sit while counting the stars,
as they fade with the clouds and make way,
for the upcoming day,
yet another day i test my strife,
how far can i go today without failing,
i know i don't have much to go,
before i lay one anticipated night,
close my eyes after the stars wave,
and welcome the black emptiness,
so blank, permanent and true,
i can't let anyone know the worry,
how i am a ticking self destruct,
just waiting for when i lean to far,
and press the button that shuts me off,
i hope i am given enough time,
to set a few things right,
tell the selected how much i love them,
time to forgive the ones i hold with spite,
and hopefully fall with a clear concious,
so i may lay at peace from there on,
watch the light disappear outside,
as the night says good morrow,
and the stars greet the clear air,
then let the darkness smother me,
say goodnight and thank the sky,
i made it through one last day.
