How hard i try

Staring at the ceiling
staring at the wall
it doesn't matter where i stare
it doesn't ease the pain at all.

trying to hold back tears
trying to hold in screams
it doesn't matter how hard i try
i'll still have shattered dreams.

no matter where i go
no matter who's around
the darkness still eats at me
until the real me can't be found.

no matter how fast i run
or how cleverly i hide
this sadness takes me over
because it's living deep inside.

it's been said you can control your life
but my life is controlling me
and no matter how hard i try
i can never be happy.