Abandoned

This misguided heart of mine,
once filled with love,
used and abused time after time,
given to a girl whom i thought i loved,
only to be played and hurt,
now this heart is filled with hate and disgust,
color changed from red to black,
temperature changed from hot to cold,
walking with a chip on my shoulder,
thinking everyone can disappear,
asking why must i be here,
to me life no longer exist in real time,
memories and dreams is all life is now,
and will forever be,