Tears fill my eyes
As I think of all of the pain our family has been put through
Of the years of emotional torture we have dealt with
We don't trust each other
And all we do is argue
I try to keep myself busy and surrounded by friends
So that I don't think of my hurting family
Or try to end my life
I stay away from home as much as possible
And constantly fear him being there when I walk through the door
My heart is in shreds
I cannot take this hate-filled environment any longer
It is killing me
I dream of leaving
Of running as far as I can without looking back
I've tried to fix this broken home
But the more I try,
The worse it gets
Why is there so much hate and discontent?
It doesn't matter how hard we try
We can't even look at each other without saying a hurtful word
Yet she won't let me leave
Let me move out and take some time to calm down
I am tired of being here
Of looking at this broken home
