Doors never opened to accept me because i was never the one that was loved. I was never the one who they dreamed of. I was never able to make them happy. Because the perfect daughter i just couldn't be.
I would wish for days that god would take me away. To end this misery for what I couldn't be.
Never to be cared for, never to adore. I know I'm not what you wanted but I try, I try not to cry, and not want to die. He is all I have left to keep me here, because being at home is what I fear. I stay alive to this day only because he had a kind word to say. You never showed a single tear, for me to not be here. Moms always working and dads never there. Sisters gone away, people ask but I'm not OK.
I have no family, and I'm never happy. I deal with to much, I've lost to much. After depression hit me, the only one that cared left me to be. He couldn't Handel the pain, that soon would drive him insane. A kiss was all that he left me for a memory. I don't blame you because its always been me. You didn't want me here so I'll leave. You will have no need to grieve. To what was my family, you can finally see me happy. And to him here is my one last cry, before I forever say good-bye.
