When you have so much pain

When you have so much pain what are you supposed to do? When you cry yourself to sleep every night no body knows? When you have so much pain that you can't hide how do you not go insane. How do you live each day with a smile on your face. When no one takes a second to smell the flowers they forget to live life. When does everything get easier thats what i want to know. When do we get better from this rock bottom that we are at. Its a break you say it wont last long but I'm starting to doubt that you where ever really here. I love you and we continue to talk but what happened to us. We where so strong we where so right. What happened why did you give up on us? What happened to forever. When you have so much pain inside who do you run to? Who is out there that really cares we have to say. Who really cares that we are over except me. I just always miss what we used to be. I will never miss what we are right now. Fights with tears and swears where is those kind words that you first said to me that made me weak in the knees. When the pain is to much to Handel what can I do? The only thing that will make me better is you.