I am orbiting this world
With memories that won't emit my head.
I lay down in my room
Waiting
Wishing
If I would ever be free.
Free from all of my fears
I can't fix what I've done
I regret what I've become
That I don't even know who I am
Lost in a cluster of words that remain in me
I wish I could leave this nightmare
So I wouldn't have to
Breathe the atmosphere of hate and betrayal
And for the laughter and insults to fade away
Everything and everyone around me
Compelled me to do the things I didn't want to do
And because I am a failure and has no conscience
I would make a blunder
I feel as if they try to jettison me
I don't blame them
I wouldn't want me either
I get the scissors
Minutes pass
Can I hurt myself?
Do I dare to slice my own flesh?
I wasn't sure....
But soon I could see blood dripping down my writs
I woke up in a place I've never been before
Trying to remember what happened
My wrists ache of pain
I looked at it
Did I really do what I did?
Was it fake? Am I fake?
What if I was in a dream or nightmare?
I cut myself, and now I'm in reality
What is reality going to be like?
Is it going to be any better then where I was before?
All I could do is wait
I couldn't describe the place
Everything was blurry and cloudy
I was afraid to take a step
Afraid of what I could walk into
As hours passes by I heard a scream
And the scream went on and on which then lead to a cry
The cry was very familiar to me
But I had the hardest time to decipher whose voice it was
I couldn't take the screams anymore
I had to find who it was
As I ran the clouds turned thick
It was as if it's not letting me through
It was as if it's telling me not to go there
I was finally there
Where the screams and cries came from
It was a girl but I still didn't know who it was
She covered her face
I asked her what was wrong
But she couldn't hear me
It was as if I didn't exists in that "world"
I could see she was hurt
She was pale and asking for help
I walked nearer to her, soon I realized behind her
There was a pool of blood next to her
I cried with hatred
She then slowly lay down
I saw that grotesque figure and was very disgusted from it
I shuddered because the girl was me
I just stood there and watched myself die
At that very moment I didn't move or breathe
Everything around me started disappearing, but I didn't care
Because I was dead
Looked at my hand
I was starting to disappear
I screamed
But no sound came out
Closed my eyes and opened it again
I saw a dark figure coming towards me
My eyes were really messed up
So I couldn't see who it was
The figure is inches away from me now
I couldn't run
The gravity had pushed me to stay put
The dark figure hugged me
The hug released my fear, betrayal, insults with in me
I was finally free
