I think this is a night I've planned all my life
subconsciously waiting
for the entry of this knife
this blade
this savior
i love this like I've loved nothing before
and the moment you enter will be
a moment i will savor
my eyes are dry.
my heart is calm
oblivious to when my lover will come
and spill my physical soul for the world to see
i might then understand inner beauty
i will not cry
for i have cried for too long
a sound will not escape my lips
i am prepared for the end
for my final bliss
my time on earth an eternal sad song
a sad song that has lasted too long
and i refuse to listen anymore
i will close the light
and open the darkened door
i will not look back i hope you can understand
no one should endure this
no woman no child no man
my grip is tightening
my force doubled
this five inch razor
death
my breast feels its hilt
i am
no I'm not
i am not there
my body is left as i float in air
i am
no I'm not
but I'll be my own angel
and i think
this is a night I've planned all my life
subconsciously waiting for the entry
of this knife
you have come
my love
