Lost....again

You left me alone,
you sent me back to my hole,
again i fall into the depths of myself,
left at the mercy of my feelings.

every logical thing inside me wants to hate you,
so much of me telling me never to talk to you again;
so much of me saying i should forget you and move on;
above all i should feel rage, madness!
but i do not,
while part of me is mad,
part of me is livid;
but most of me misses you,
most of me wants you back.
my yearn for u outweighs everything else.

i have never gone back,
i always move on,
but i have never felt this;
i have always lived my life believing:
"Life is too short for second chances"
but not now,
not with you.
i want you back so much,
i miss you so much!