My existence

I lay awake at night trying to find to answers to my questions
do i make the right choices?
is my pain i feel day in day out worth it all?
my fake smile i put on to please others?
should i risk it all and admit it to my world?

its like I'm searching for something thats lost inside
i just want to run away and hide
why do you do the things you do?
insist on hurting me so?
these questions are driving me mad
because the answers i do not know

my heart beats fast
my hands sweat
my head rushes with these thoughts
my heart feels like its going to break with deep insistence
this is no life its just my existence