Tears Of A Broken Heart

This little thing inside of me,
I used to call it my heart,
But you just reached inside of me
And shredded it apart.
What on earth could have fueled
This sudden dreaded doubt,
That we had been forbidding,
But had been worrying about?
As soon as I read the warning,
I knew I wouldn't laugh,
But now I know that, even then,
It made me feel like crap.
So you're leaving the door open
For me to walk away,
"I see no reason for us to break up,"
Isn't that what you used to say?
I thank you for the consideration,
I thank you for caring about how I feel,
But why would you even think that I would,
When we both thought that this was for real?
I read the warning and began to cry,
I may not think that is smart,
But they weren't tears of death or depression or joy,
They were tears of a broken heart.
It's happening to everyone,
Relationships ending here and there,
But we said we'd last through everything,
Or do you no longer care?
The pain inside me has not subdued,
I cannot stop my tears,
I only wish that I could hold you,
And that you would be right here.
We said distance wouldn't be a problem,
And yet you brought it up again,
And weren't you the one who said,
"With or without their consent"?
How am I to leave
What I love so much, behind?
How can I hold back,
When all I want to do is cry?
And yes, I am still crying,
Even hours after the start,
And they're not tears of sadness or gladness,
But tears of a broken heart.
You know that I still love you,
I will forever more,
But how can we live with uncertainty,
Without knowing what's in store?
I need you more than anything,
You've said you need me too,
So why are we bringing this up again,
You know that I love you.
I don't care what the parents say,
I don't care about the proximity,
I don't care about the nightmares,
I just want it to be you and me.
We've always lingered on a thought,
We've survived on the "Us"
So why are you letting that waver,
Why won't you give me your trust?
I'll hold Us both together,
There's enough love in my heart,
I'll wait for you forever,
No matter how long we're apart.
As I think of how much we care,
How wonderful we are as "Us"
I never want to have to share
My beacon of love and trust.
Hold me close and remember
The things we used to do,
The times we want to have together
And dispel these thoughts of simply you.
I know that we are one,
We always were, and always will be,
So don't forget, and don't regret
You'll always be in me.
Now the tears evaporate
As I think of our love, apart,
I hope I will never again have to cry
These tears of a broken heart.

As we all know, a broken heart is the cause of much of our poetry. There is some sort of magic that occurs when you record exactly how it feels to have your heart ripped out of your chest and then shoved down your throat. I know that writing it down numbs the pain...at least momentarily. However, I also know that, when someone reads about how they broke another person's heart, they tend to feel a little magic inside of them. Think of it as a needle that materializes inside their own heart, that is signaling for them to pull out that needle of apology (or forgiveness) and sew the broken pieces of a heart back together. My hopes in writing this is that someone out there will realize how much it hurts to have a broken heart, and, upon reading this, will realize how much they really mean to me.

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