Never Be Around

Ive reached out for someone but found that no one was there.
I hate this life and it seems like no one cares.
Sometimes i scream out for help but i don't make a sound.
I keep looking for a reason to live but its no where to be found.

All that i have left is the tears and my breath.
It seems like my emotions are being put to the test.
Like god is punishing me for the wrong that I do.
That this pain and depression is what he wants me to go through.

But right at this moment i don't even care.
I could live or die ill be prepared.
All i knew how to do was love but i guess i did that wrong.
I probably never should have been put on this earth all along.

I cant stand anything i hate my life.
especially the part where nothing feels right.
I don't know what to do anymore and I'm just losing faith.
Theres nothing left to hold on to but i will just in case.

I'm sorry i make mistakes but I'm only human just like everyone else.
Ive been through mental damage but id never do physical harm to my self.
Just no one really knows what goes through my mind.
And no one really knows what i go through all the time.

Ive learn to deal with everything through years of experience.
Like the smile on my face and pretending to be happy over and over again.
But sometimes it just gets old and everything comes out.
My heart get broken all the time it just make me wanna shout.

I know i cant change where you and me are at.
But if i could wish for anything id wish to have you back.
Cause you just don't understand how much u really mean to me.
You'll never know how bad im hurt cause you will never see

But all i want for you is to be happy with or without me.
But girl you and me i swear was meant to be.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart but i had to let you go.
Cause the way you were hurting me is something you will never know.

My only true happiness is the happiness i get from you.
But when you are gone i don't know what to do.
But i guess ill let the tears to continue falling down.
And you will never even notice cause you'll never be around.

JayJay
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