Into the Abyss

I live my life in doubt
Wondering what it's all about
Why did God put me here?
I'm so ashamed I don't look in the mirror

My face remains devoid of hope
I continue to climb the impossible slope
I fall and get up
Too full is my cup

I can't play with the hand I've been dealt
I wish she knew how I felt
I could make things better than before
If I could just break through her locked door

My days remain gloomy
I swear she never really knew me
To believe the lies she hears
Even the thought sends me to tears

Who I am doesn't seem to matter
My heart is broken but continues to splatter
Just release me in to the abyss
Because I know it is me you won't miss

-----------------------To P.G.-----------------------------