God is cruel to make me feel a ultimate relief from my endless chaotic mind. To have found love i thought was the best thing ever to happen. 1 year 2 months 9 days is how long we knew each other and how long my mind was asleep for quite for a change. Up until I was forced to move away from her it was all good memory's, happy times, walks on the beach as we watched the sun go down. We both thought we would be together forever so we took each other's virginity. 15 years old and with my first real love and i think my long line of death and drugs were done because i had her. But when i moved my mind opened again i started to go insane and all we did was fight over stupid little things. I still loved her and I promised I would stay loyal to her so we could get married, and I did but she didn't. She met another, she said he reminds her of me which makes it worse to know. Now I think of those good times and it breaks my heart to think shes now doing that with him and they are both enjoying every minute of it. I know she may think of me every now and then and think how I am but i hope she never calls she is happy with him and he can do much more then I can.
