I don't know what to do

I am lying to you
so much now
i dint know what to do
the truth would kill you
i never saw this coming
though it has happened before
i don't know why i turn away
and close our once open door

i want out of here
but i don't know what to tell you
what would you even hear
the truth is not what you want
I want to hold someone else
but still love you the same
i know that I'm being selfish
but isn't love just a game?

If you ever saw this poem
I'm sure you would cry
and i would have to find a way
to make sure you didn't die
because a heartbreak is a terrible thing
i know this for a fact
but i want out and thats no lie
and to break our teenage pact

-Breaking up with someone is so very hard to do-