So many secrets I've kept hidden
So many secrets I've left unsaid
And the other night while people were sleeping
I did things I shouldn't have
So many times he's hurt me and tore me apart
So many times he broke my poor little heart
And I've tried to move on
I realized though it's harder than I thought
So many thing I wish I could've done
So many things I did so wrong
And I wish I could take them back
I wish I could go back to the past
So many reasons why I could've left him in the dark
So many reasons why I could've pushed him away
And I can't help but feel this way
I lye awake as my life slowly decays
So many things I want to say
So many things that have turned me away
And I know I can do this is I just tried
I know I can get him off my mind
So many excuses of being late
So many excuses that were just lame
And now I end this knowing the facts
I know I'm useless.. I'm a piece of trash
