Words Can't Explain

Words cannot explain...
The feelings I feel when I lay my head down to go to sleep at night
My mind is rushed, filled with thoughts and memories
That have been there forever
That will never cease to haunt me
I have realized that no one will ever begin to understand me
No one will ever feel the pain I've felt
It's that certain loneliness
That questionable sense of abandonment
That feeling of deceit, betrayal
He left me after all those beautiful, youthful years...
Old photographs and plethoras of timeless "songs of the moments"
Will always dance around my mind to remind me
That what I had was real
It wasn't just a dream
I sit and watch the midnight sky shift from shape to shape
With insomnia overcoming my brain
I cry and cry and cry
Wishing there was some cure, that I could just FORGET IT ALL
But then I realize, I don't want to forget it
Those memories of the perfect, strong parts of my life
Is what keeps me sane, keeps me alive
Because then I know that happiness is achievable
It's within my grasp
I just have to find it
And if doesn't come along soon
I know it will, I know it
I'll be the little kid I once was
With a smile from ear to ear
It takes time for wounds to heal
And I'm willing to accept that, knowing once I find it, I will never again find something more powerful