Tear Stain

Its getting harder to breathe.
Without you by my side.
Moving on is not working to well.
Ive tried and tried and tried.

I somewhat wanna let go.
But then again I cant.
Cause every time I try to.
I fall for you with just one glance.

You are everything to me.
You are the reason I'm still here.
You gave me all my happiness.
And took away all my fears.

But now that you are gone.
I gain a fear everyday.
The pain seems to come more.
I just wish it would go away.

Although you hurt me a lot.
I still love you with all my heart.
And if could turn back time.
I would have never broken us apart.

I miss you more than ever.
And my smiles have begun to fade
I wake up to another bad day.
I just wish i never would awake.

I cant stand what I have become.
But I cant change the way I am.
And if you knew how I really felt.
You still wouldn't understand.

I look out my window every night.
Just staring at the stars.
And sometimes I wonder.
If you can see the brightest one I see where ever you are.

I wish I knew what crossed your mind.
Every single day of your life.
I cant stand to be where im at.
Cause Ive been here more than twice.

It kills me inside to walk around.
And not have you right next to me.
Its pretty hard to adjust to the position I'm in.
Cause clearly I'm not happy.

I miss the way you smile.
And the way you would laugh.
The way your eyes would look.
When you got suddenly mad.

The expressions on your face.
And the way you said I Love You.
When I think of all these things.
Just break down and cry is what I wanna do.

But I gotta stay strong.
I don't want the pain to show.
I don't want anyone to notice.
I don't want anyone to know.

That every door I open.
Opens to a whole new world of pain.
And every trip down memory lane
Leads to just another tear stain.

JayJay
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