How is it suppose to be?

How to say everything in a word
How to be everything when you're nothing
How to get everything ,but nothing in the end

You're selfish and conceded
You senses dulled by your cure-all
Take a step back a look at what you have done
Tell yourself it is a dream as you look and run
I didn't say i love you to say it ,but to mean it
You seem to not care as I weep at your feet
But I'm just your jester who knows no deceit

How to speak the truth when it's choking you
how to break free of everything when you want to be nothing
How can you dream when you head is clogged with nightmares?

I'm narcissistic and a drama queen
you see nothing in me
Weighted down by the guilt that was given
Taught to love but now all i do is hate
As i wait for that someone
He teases and taunts as I try to flaunt what I have left in me

He was a dream that never came true
A liar and cheat was all that came though
He always meant to hurt and all i could do was cry
As he left my emotions to die
Dead girl i have become
Soul and body now as one