Affection

I've been starved of affection...that was rightfully mine
So long have I searched to find...so long in time
Out of reach of all my senses
Out of control with such large fences

How high can I scale my feelings?
Before my life looses all it's meaning
Do I believe I've wanted...too much?
Or can I say I've deserved such stuff

When will I think of my life and me?
So that all I crave for... I can see
To replenish the existance I once thought I deserved
For which I have lived...with such reserve

To love and live as I expected
To care and share and be respected
All I have to give HAS to be worth something
Or else I've survived and It's been for nothing

To waste my life and never succeed
For following the life of despair and need
Changes in direction now seem so extreme
When everything I've searched for...has seemed to have been

So affection IS needed in my life
For being a mother,lover and wife
Allowing me to feel safe,loved and protected
Would make me more than just rejected

Let me glimpse the spirit I want to be
My soul eventually set free
To sore above my heart and cry
Help me,save me,my life has passed me by