Started with insanity

Her insanity...

dark, stormy nights...
waking to her room...
she reaches under her bed
what for though?

she slowly glides out a knife from on top of the box spring,
to her it is the best in the world ; it is a one of a kind... she got it from the guy she... "loved?"

he was the one who cursed her right...? making it so she was hated throughout school; every friend leaving her and no guy wants to date a girl that use to have a problem...

she goes to turn on her some music... "back from one" to be more precise...
hours went by with her sitting on her bed just thinking listening to the song on repeat...
it reminded her of how perilous he was, tending not to ruin her; yet his only goal was to seduce her...
she wasn't ready for that.. what if there was no condom and she got pregnant, she wouldn't be able to handle a child she can't even handle her own brother and sister....

so many thoughts were going through her head...
she took one deep breath slowly in... and then out...
totally forgetting she was fiddling around with her gift,
all this thinking made her heart race...
to clam herself down she slid the knife against her skin...
leaving no marks but... she still felt it
after about a minute of rubbing it on her skin... it seemed so addicting

it made her want to do more.. make a scar...
so she will be able to show the one she loves what his present did to her...

so then she tightened her grip
as if she was a pro
yet she was only an amateur...
she didn't know what was so wrong with expressing your feelings using a knife...

thinking again...

she decided she wanted to do things differently
then how she normally did it...
was it alright she wanted to feel more pain because this was a big probem?

slowly she placed her right hand flat on her desk...
and started drawing blood by slicing the increases on her knuckles...

sure... it felt wrong knowing that she still loved her x and she was using his gift to harm...
but there was no other way to get him out of her head...

she wanted pain!
she wanted to die!

so she decided a slow PAINFUL DEATH but how? that is the question... she troubled herself with

how should she take her own life with this wonderful knife?

"Got it!" She said to herself.

By now there were tears running down her checks...
the pain from her knuckles made her fingers weak...
she took the knife and quickly carved something into her arm...
right then with no second thoughts and no turning back...

Then she took the gift and shoved it into her esophagus....

just then her parents walked in, not knowing what they would see but they were worried because they heard crying earlier and they wanted to make sure she was OK...
with the knife in her neck she fell to the floor...
her mother went to her side and her dad called 911...

she looked her mom straight in the eyes and said, "look what Jason gave me!"
and just then she smiled as her face turned pale and the glow of her body disappeared in the light...
she slowly drifted off into her eternal rest...

a few days later at her funeral...

almost everyone of her ex-friends showed up including her ex-boyfriend,
he walked up to her mother and said " I am sorry this happened to Sara.. she is in a better place now"
and her mom replied fiercely, "damn straight she is in a better place! I got a gift for you young man"
she pulled out the knife and held it in front of her for him to take...
"you killed my daughter heart, and don't expect to see my angel when you die because you are going to HELL... you should have seen what you did, you should have read her arm, been there for her last breaths... the message for you on her arm said, "thanks 4 the gift, baby"... you should be f*in a ashamed of yourself..."

then he bowed his head and walked away...
her mother knew he was crying inside...
and that day little Sara got what she wanted...

thee end and nothing more.